Do you know why you do what you do or realize? It might be a difficult question because it could be related just to your career or to your family, but like a lot of us, you do more than one thing, but a lot of times we do things and we don’t know why we do them. It’s just expected of us or it’s because we chose something in the past and we no longer want to do it, but we feel the need to continue for one reason or another and often we do something but the meaning of it changes over time. And that’s why now more than 200 episodes into this show, I now have a greater understanding of why I do this podcast. It is much more clear to me now than it was 200 episodes ago. And even though it’s considered a business or a lifestyle or career podcast, the truth is it’s kind of disguised as that.
But I didn’t know when I started and I’m going to tell you today what drives me to do this podcast and create it every day. And it might make more sense if you follow closely why I don’t do certain things. And why do others cause to a lot of people when they start a podcast, the podcast is a lead generator for their business alone. And yes, there is an aspect to that within the show. Naturally by putting myself out there, by giving my insights, giving my predictions, telling my stories, it garners interest in the work that I do, whether it’s speaking or for our membership community or for coaching or whatever. There’s no denying that I’m not blind to it and not going gonna pretend like it’s not a part of it. And I’m really proud of that part and it’s exciting to be able to have a platform to be able to sit here and get those thoughts out and then realize all over the world people are taking the time to listen and then even more incredibly, they’re taking the time to listen and then reach out to me.
And I don’t think that’s ever going to get old. At least I hope not. But there’s a deeper reason why I do this. See if you know me well enough. You know that I love history. It’s the one subject in school that I really love diving into and most, especially before we had kids. When I started winding down from my party days, you’d find me often declining to go out with my friends for a night of partying and even when I was single, staying home and reading books about history and I had all sorts of topics that I love diving into. At one point, the whole culture of the 1960s consumed me. I read so many books on civil rights on Woodstock, the Vietnam war and the Kennedys. That whole culture shift that happened from what seemed like an innocent part of this country, the early 1960s to the late 1960s where everything had changed.
I went through a period of time of mafia books. It was so intriguing to me, especially in the 1970s and 1980s and the mafia families in the New York city area. Obviously I love sports, history of music history. That’s why I love as a family, we get to travel around the country often and visit so many areas, the museums, the actual spots where things happened in terms of the history of this country, both good and bad. And I’m so fortunate that either through brainwashing or a boss, some wife that teaches our kids this, but our kids are so interested in it as well. And then with that I think about my family and the older I get, I realize I don’t know nearly as much about my family as I wish I did from their past. And our 14 year old now studies world war II.
He’s intrigued by the history as well by the tanks. Everything that went into it. And what’s interesting is he studies more on the European side, but my grandfather fought in world war II and I knew very little about it when I was a kid. But I distinctly remember a picture of my grandfather looking so young, huddled together with other soldiers and in celebration were holding up a German swastika flag. And the enormity that did not hit me at all in the moment. But that picture still burned in my mind. And it wasn’t until almost the end of his life that I realized that he fought and was part of the feeding the Nazis. And that picture was in Germany after that victory. And now almost 70 years later, it’s not just his story, it’s American history. And then I hear the story of my other grandfather, my dad’s dad, who died when I was four or five.
I barely got to know him, but I still remember being in the backyard of their little house in Queens and him taking me behind the garage, holding my hands so gently because that’s where they kept the sand for us to plan. So he would bring me back with the bucket and it would help me scoop the sand in there. It’s one of my only memories of my grandfather and the only one I really remember is walking into their bedroom and him laying in bed, obviously sick and giving them a hug and give him a kiss and walking out. My parents driving us home. And it was the last time that I saw him. I think about all those stories, all the untold stories, and I remember trying to talk to my grandfather, the one who was in world war II about his story there and he never wanted to talk about it and I couldn’t understand.
And now I understand there was so much trauma, so much involved left his wife and his only son at the time to go fight in a war. Well, he didn’t know if he’d ever come back. It’s hard not to think of what would’ve happened if things went differently. He came back in a year or two later, my mother was born. So if anything went different during that war, which was very likely, I wouldn’t be here today and neither would my kids. And when you start thinking that way, it’s pretty deep and heavy and there’s so much more I can go there, but this is why I do this podcast. This is why it’s not strictly business or business tips or money or anything iPad. This podcast is my life. And people ask me, do you ever worry about running out of content? And there was a point early on before I realized my purpose of this podcast.
It kind of worried about that a little bit. Am I going to tell the same stories, my decent, same lessons? I mean, how much do I really have to share? There is a total imposter syndrome when it comes to that, but it’s shifted somewhere along the way and I don’t know when, but I started thinking about my wife, Elizabeth and our boys at the same time. I thought about the people that come after them, their kids and then their kids, and I say to myself, I don’t care about things like inheritances. I truly don’t care if I leave our kids one and I don’t care that my grandparents didn’t leave me one. They struggled financially most of their lives and money wasn’t something that was going to be passed down, but the one thing that I wish was passed down or the stories, because I don’t have very many of them and the ones I do know the same ones that have been told over and over again as I think about it.
Yeah, there’s still a chance to talk to the living relatives and get some of them. But man, would it have been nice to hear the stories in their voices. So that is what this show is about. Not about the total life freedom podcast, even though that’s what this is. It’s not about how many downloads or how much money I can make off of this or how popular I become. This podcast is my accountability to put these stories into the world for my kids and grandkids and beyond. This is my audio history because I’m fortunate that my kids love me and sometimes they listen to me sometimes, but we’re not sitting around talking about this stuff. But I know someday these lessons and these stories and the people in my life who’ve helped me, taught me might be a benefit for them in their life. So they don’t listen now and I don’t blame them.
They hear enough me. But one day, this might be valuable to them. One day when they’re 26 or 34 or 48 and they want to hear from me or they want to hear a message from their dad or they want to hear the story about my past or my parents, our history or somebody that helped or even hurt our family, they’ll know where to hear it. So when I think about that, which I don’t do every day cause I get caught up in the day to day activities or when I really sit back to think about what this is about. Like I said in episode 200 it does not matter how many downloads I have. It doesn’t matter how popular show is or how much business I get from it. This is an audio history of my life and our life to hopefully be passed down to them as a gift.
Because if I’m driving tonight and I get sideswiped by a car and they never hear from me again, someday they’re going to have this to listen to. And by teaching other people through the podcast about how to live their life to the fullest. Hopefully if they’re in a spot where they’re struggling a spot when they’re confused, when there’s a day that they feel like they have nobody to talk to or turn to, I want them to know that this will be there for them. And so many people tell me like, I can’t believe how honest you are and open you are in your podcast. And this is why I’m not trying to sugar coat anything and I’m not trying to impress people to get clients. This is my audio history for my family in the future. So if you haven’t thought about that, I would consider thinking about it.
You don’t have to put it out as a podcast for other people to listen to. But man, there’s nothing I would want more from my grandparents. Nothing I could find more valuable than hearing their voice talking to me about what life was like as they were growing. What interesting stories went on? What was life like in that era and what could it possibly teach me about my family and about the world? So if this inspires anybody else to start an audio history for their family, then my mission here is accomplished. So to my kids, if you’re listening in 2046 or whenever this is for you, I’ll talk to everybody tomorrow.